Posted by: kacesq | April 28, 2008

Preparing for Matthew with a Heavy Heart

I’ve been a worrier and a nervous wreck throughout this adoption process. I have a hangup on being “approved” whether it was by the agency after application, the home study, the I171-H, etc. Of course the biggest hurdle is the I600, but I was 1/2 way thru the 60 day period, my agency had been steadily getting approvals, and I was growing more confident. So I’ve been preparing. I have clothes. I ordered a car seat. We painted the room. I registered.

And now today, I have my travel prep/vaccination appointment with our IA doctor. I feel…weird…about it all. I don’t know how to quantify it or describe it.

I know I have to prepare because as of now, the Embassy is still processing I600s. And yet, I feel like every step I take is tempting fate, like I shouldn’t do anything in case something goes wrong…

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I remember that feeling (it was way stronger with Amelia than with Jack). You won’t feel 100% confident until you have that visa in your hand and are on the plane back home. But hopefully that won’t be that much longer. I can not tell you enough how happy I am you have missed what I think will be the worst of this mess!!

By: Tracy on April 28, 2008
at 12:40 pm

I know what you mean. That’s part of the reason why I’ve been scrambling like mad this week.. I hadn’t wanted to buy any baby clothes or even a car seat until we had received our approval. But hang in there! As scary as the situation in VN is right now, you do have a right to celebrate the arrival of your son.

By: Jill on April 28, 2008
at 7:49 pm

Hi. I found your blog from someone else’s blog. I just wanted to say enjoy this time. This is your “pregnancy” period and you have a right to it. Don’t rob yourself of it. I know how scary it all is but stay positive and your positive energy will make good things happen. I will think good thoughts for you.
JMD

By: Julie on April 29, 2008
at 3:32 am

Hi, been there, done that, and very recently, all the concerns in VN stole my nesting pleasures, but it DOES NOT MATTER, nothing “jinxed” my approval, we traveled in March, we’re safely home in April! The “AFTER” Party has been GREAT. I highly recommend baby showers with the baby in attendance. Best of luck to you.

By: Sandra on April 30, 2008
at 2:58 am

I just scrolled over to your site from 3continent’s page.

I feel the same way about tempting fate. We are on day 8 of i600 wait (which now I need to figure out how to set-up another calendar for all the holidays) we scheduled our vaccination appointments, and we have our 2nd shower (the big family and friends one) this month and I can’t help but feel reserved about everything especially after all the recent developments from last week.

Anyway, I’d love to continue to read your blog, but I understand your password protection. I might be moving over to wordpress for that function myself. :) Have a great day!

By: mamapajama on May 1, 2008
at 1:59 pm

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